Shallow Alaska

Man..how fucking hectic my emotions can become sometimes..I completely fucking broke down today. I think part of it was because I was having bad nic-fits and also because I just felt, I guess, shunned. I know Sho loves me and cares for me deeply. But she sure knows how to fuck over my emotions too, and I guess it's my fault for being too emotional sometimes, but damn.

I just really love her greatly, and I don't ever want anything to bring us apart again. And it seems like I might become that downfall, I really need to become more stable, but I've been through so much with her, I can't fucking help it. Hopefully I can better myself for her. I know I can, but I want to quickly.

It's not exactly easy
I've been here before
My stomach feeling queasy
As I'm reaching for the door
I just want to get out
Get back to my love
But as much as I may shout
It never is enough
I'm killing myself to leave
But I'm not dying on her
A bit further and I'm free
And my feelings sum up in a word
Love, that's what I feel
It's right there before me
It almost isn't real
Even though I can see
I'm out of that black hole
The door was open, her inside
Her love makes me whole
My love for her I confide
I reach for her hand
She pulls away, and why
I pull myself to stand
As I stare into her eyes

"I love you, my dear
You helped me through it all
I got past my fear
and up over my wall"
A smile across her face
A warmth rushes my veins
Beside her I take my place
And then we hold hands
We march out of darkness
Towards a bright future
It's song, beautifully hearkens
Our love, made so pure

Stay Happy

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